Things I Love

Monday I sat down to begin drafting a post about a “thing I love.” And I was so tired, and so worn out, and my brain was so exhausted that I honestly couldn’t think of a thing I loved that I wanted to write about. It’s not that I didn’t love anything, it’s just I wasn’t feeling the “umph” to put any of it into words.

Today I’m feeling more refreshed, some of the things weighing on my mind have been alleviated, and now I know the “thing” I want to write about.

Only…it’s not a “thing”  – it’s this:

I love the blessing of authority and submission. I love the peace that comes with following someone’s lead.

I’m not talking about being a doormat and being walked all over, I’m talking about being smart and intelligent and thinking through issues and giving my opinion, but ultimately leaving it up to my authority to decide.

There is immense freedom in that, and it’s beautiful.

There been multiple examples of this in my life these past weeks.

If I feel strongly about something and am writing an email or blog post – I read them to Nolan before I send or post them. I talk through it with him, and I let him help me edit. He helps me reword things to be less harsh. He asks me to edit out things that might come across wrong. He rephrases things that might sound disrespectful. He helps me take my God-given intelligence and convey what I need to say in a God-honoring way. He helps me. And I love it.

I love that I can trust him. I love that I can turn to him for help. I love that when I hit “send” or “publish” that I have his blessing on my words.

I love it!

I’m not saying we’re always going to agree on everything. Sometimes Nolan asks me to edit out things I really want to say. What I am saying is, there is freedom in releasing it. In bowing my heart and saying, “I trust you.”

And, you know why?

Because I trust God.

I trust that He’s got it all under control {and He does!}. I trust that He’ll guide my husband’s decisions. I trust that He has only my best planned out {He promises that to His children}. I can trust my authorities because I can trust Him.

And – oh – the freedom there is in that.

The joy there is in that.

The peace there is in that.

That’s what I love today.

{I’m not saying I always do this right. I’m not saying I do it all the time – because I don’t – though I should. I’m not saying that I don’t sometimes wrestle with myself to get to that point. What I am saying is that I love it when I do.}